Ma.. you don't need to join bidadi or sign any form or anything like that to be a devotee, u just have to be a devotee... u can visit bidadi ofcourse, its a wonderful peaceful meditative place.

   Ma, if u r an adult, then I feel u can take a decision to visit ashram on your own without depending upon ur family, but don't become rude to them, try to make them understand but if they don't u don't restrict urself fom coming to bidadi, coz I know, this would b ur best decision ever. You'll thank urself for taking this decision. Ma, by u being a devotee, u'll b doing a lot of good to ur family indirectly. Ma, u can also tell ur parents to come there just once and see what is actually happening and then decide. Also, there are 1000's of Swami's videos in youtube, as of now, u can watch them and make them also to watch. These videos will really help u. Start living His teachings Ma, people around u must b able to see that change in u. the link: www.youtube.com/lifeblissfoundation

Ma, I'm a minor and this is what I can tell u... Hope this is of some help to u... If u have anything alse to ask, plz feel free to do so...